prayer in writing, 8/31/21

Albert Thomas
2 min readAug 31, 2021

God,
I haven’t spoken to You enough lately.
So this will be my prayer.
I know You can see it
because You see all.

Please bless me, a humble sinner.
A nobody, really.
I want to follow Your will.
I have all these plans for myself
but I can’t make them happen
and I can’t give them up.
I don’t know if they are what You want me to do.
I wish that either our goals could align
or I could let go of anything You don’t want from me.

Today I am spending a quiet day with You.
I haven’t spent time with You in a while now, Lord;
please forgive me.
I have been trying to destroy my ego and humble myself.
I’m a nobody.
Yet I have grandiose plans.
I want to be a Somebody.
But a nobody I am
and that may be for the best.

Will I be a Somebody some day?
Will I die a nobody?
Is my time coming?
Will it ever come?
This is what I struggle with.

But I don’t fear anymore.
I know that with God all things are possible.
I know that many over the history of time
have tried to unseat You from Your throne
and all have failed;
God is undefeated.

I know that I have multiple personalities.
I know there is more than one person in this body.
Jekyll and Hyde
and only You know how many more.
I wish I could deny myself.

Forgive me, Lord.
Forgive me for not spending enough time with You.
For falling repeatedly into my sin.
I’m a nobody, a mere sinner,
one of trillions throughout history.
Who am I to think I’m special.
I am not worthy of Your love
but You gave it to me anyway.
You chose me.
In that regard
and only that regard
am I special.

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Albert Thomas

prose scrawled on the cave walls — poems, thoughts, and stories from the remarkably unremarkable